.again.at.the.crossroad.

dear all,

a year ago, i was challenged to take up something with little faith but somewhat, it seemed God-sent.

barely one year and a month have passed, i am currently at a juncture where i have to make a decision, again.

i asked myself, if it were to be God-sent, why is taking place now?

frankly, i took up the job as an air steward, not because it seems to be glamorous and 'high-flying'. i had no choice at that time.

it seemed the only way out at that point in my life, where things did not seem to work out. uncertainties set in. i simply grabbed whatever that was offered.

no doubt, i have had my fair share of the fun and do still like the job as a steward.

the pay is good. the off-days are pretty near to each other. the opportunities to see the world are free. the hotel rooms i stayed in, are at least 5-stars. what more could anyone ask for, for a job like this?

if you were to ask me whether i miss flying, my answer is yes.

why this statement?

a slipped disc has caused me to be grounded for the next 2 months.

according to the specialist, i am 'unfit to fly' till i get better.

i am alright. life is full of challenges. when you get up there, you will eventually get down. remember the first time you sat on a swing as a child?

it was so exciting to be pushed from behind, so that i would be swinging my way up, but i did get a little jittery as it seemed too high and i felt like i was falling off. just as my heart was about to reach my mouth, the momentum would bring me down and a 'safe landing' took place before another push was delivered, again.

one thing struck me unaware. when i told my slipped disc condition to my trainer, she comforted me and asked if i were very 'religious'. she then continued by saying that 'maybe He is trying to tell you something through this'. how true? i just have to wait and see.

chun quan